life update! i am currently in my 4th year of medical school and tomorrow will be the first day of my community posting. surprisingly enough, i managed to finish the 4 postings of 4th year smoothly without any remedial needed! that was so impressive for someone like me, since the first-year me would never ever have thought that i was able to go this far. 

now that i reflected my journey again, i started off pretty slow and dumb, i used to take the back seat and never volunteer in any of the classes that we have, even got scolded by this one ED dr for not being knowledgeable enough. it was my fault entirely, but i did not really feel anything since i am used to being told off like that. anaesthesiology kind of changed me, since the lecturers were so supportive and encouraged the students to talk and volunteer. it kind of pushed me out of my comfort zone, and i was able to ask questions and talk more.

then, i made it out alive from o&g posting as well, and even got the scariest group for this posting. this was another posting that changed me to become braver and bolder. i even went against the scariest prof everyone has been talking about since the start of my medical school, and became close with her towards the end. it was a hell kind of experience but i will forever cherish the moments. but it does not end there, once again, i got another scary dr in psychiatry! he was actually not as bad as what people have been spreading around. he was pretty cocky and annoying but he told us that we are one of his favourites and that's more than enough. 

for orthopaedics, i got another scary dr as my supervisor. i don't know what has gotten into me, but i got way too easily tired in this posting and could not enjoy most of it. and getting betrayed by my own close friend does not really help either. thank god, the drs were all so kind and willing to teach. the highlight of this posting was definitely my eop! it was the weirdest exam ive been through like which examiner would treat you to a drink after an exam??? but still, i passed. even the written ones. it was by a thin margin, but i am still glad that all my hard work paid off in the end! 

i am so happy and fully satisfied with how much i've changed throughout my 4th year. i might get too attached and will be so sad to enter my final year :( but all in all, always be grateful and never forget your roots :)