Thursday, 15 January 2026 @ 03:14  0 stares


idk why i am writing this, honestly. probably because this is like the very first time i went out with a guy under a forced proximity, and when i got back from the trip, i just couldn't stop thinking about it. the other party probably won't remember this as much as i do, but i just want to write this down so i don't forget this moment.  also, i am 100% sure right after i'm writing this, he will get himself a girl in the next few days, speaking based on my previous experiences. and it's not like i like LIKE him anyway. i am just in love with the moments. from yesterday.

so the story went like this, me and (ok let's just call this guy andrian), we have never spoken a word to each other, never been in the same group, and have never cross path throughout these 5 years of medical school. i have always viewed him as a snobby, good-for-nothing guy as he was ranked as like the #1 most good-looking guy in our batch (in which i did not agree at all). i couldn't care less about him, and the not-so-good stories about him did not help either. i never knew what he was like in real life, as i never had the chance to get to know him at all. 

then, yesterday happened. there were three of us initially, and we were grouped into two groups. as it was an odd number, one of us needs to go to the visit alone. i was wishing that i was the one who got chosen to go on the home visit alone, as i do not wish to be stuck with a guy for one whole day. but guess what happened? i was grouped with andrian for the visit. i have never talked to him at all though we were in the same group for a short while. knowing how popular he is, he wouldn't want to talk to someone like me at all. 

however this whole situation happened and i can say that he is not so bad, unlike what the others said. while waiting for the nurse to pick us up for the visit, we talked a lot. at first it was about the exams, then we got bored and talked about our personal lives. he even opened up about how he was raised by a single mum, and all. it was awkward at first but eventually we got pretty comfortable towards the end. 

then the visit happened. but before that the nurse asked us to grab quick lunch before the going to our destination. the nurse just left us like that and we grab a lunch together, yes, just the two of us! i have never went out with a guy and eat in front of each other like this. oh god, can you imagine how awkward it was, eating with him, in a freaking food court? it was so weird and i just want to get out of there fast due to the awkwardness. and andrian, being a fast eater, did not help either. he initiated most of the conversations while we were eating and i wanted to thank the heavens for that. 

we drove to the first house and it was the longest visit ever. we just sat there, watching the nurse counsel the entire troublesome family for almost 2 and half hours. we were not allowed to use our phones during the visit and our exam results were released during that period. we checked our results together and kinda like hyping each other up for passing the exams. i am so glad that i passed so that i wouldn't look so stupid in front of him. also i think it was cute how we have the exact same model of shoes with two very contrasting colours. since i only know one person who wear them, which is him, haha.

then we went to the second house, which took forever to let us in. they have dogs, like very big ones, so i got scared, of course because i am not allowed to touch them. then, this one poodle climbed on me, so andrian kinda like blocked the dog from me afterwards lol. then the day ended, we booked a grab back home which took ages to come. we talked and talked until the grab arrived. he opened the freaking door for me which made my heart flutter!!!!!! the grab driver was soooo talkative and told us a bunch of historical stories and we just tried to be interested because we were so damn tired from all the visits, and now we are stuck in a traffic jam together. we laughed a lot that day. i have never spent an entire day with a guy, and i can't believe the mr popular guy is the one i went out with. i really did not like him at all, he is nowhere close to my type, but after spending the day with him i realised that he is not so bad. 

i hope both of us can still talk comfortably like this in the future and at least be friends. and i hope he had fun spending time with me, as much as i did.